酸了就要倒吊

我曾擁有過EELS的第二張專輯《電擊憂傷》Electro-shock Blues一段時間，後來不見了。

購買這張專輯時還是大學生，真正認真聽歌時卻已成為失業人士。我渡過一個炎熱、骯髒、貧窮的印度式夏天。

那年夏天我花了兩個禮拜，寫下第一篇小說，一邊反覆聽3 speed這首歌。這張專輯算是主唱Mr.E的悼亡之作，他的親人幾乎在那幾年間都凋零了。因而偶爾萌生死念時，我也如他發出疑問：Why won't you just tell me what's going on?

Got a 3 speed and banana seat
Sitting back on the sissy bar
Went to sev and got a drink
Wish I was driving in daddy's car

And I looked up at the sky last night
And I thought I saw a bomb
And why won't you just tell me what's going on?

Riding down on sprinhill road
Meeting Alfred out in the woods
Dogs bark and mosquito's bite
Scratching the itch that makes it feel good

And I looked into the mirror last night
All I saw was a pretty blonde
And why won't you just tell me what's going on?

Life is funny
But not ha ha funny
Peculiar I guess
You think I got it going my way
Then why am I such a fuckin' mess?

Want a pony and a birthday cake
Want a party with a scary clown
Kneel down and bow to the princess
Kneel down for the queen of the town

And I looked up at the sky last night
And I thought I saw a bomb
And why won't you just tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on

最後我沒有死成，對命運的底蘊一無所知，沒有得到小馬、生日蛋糕、銀手鐲、潛水衣、梔子花環、漫步月球的芭蕾舞鞋，甚至把《電擊憂傷》CD弄丟了，但我仍記得這首歌。

在youtube上唯一能找到的3 speed影片，是段一個年輕人生澀彈唱的錄影。如此年輕如此笨拙(但還是比我聰明)，願他能繼續當個快樂的beautiful freak。

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pzy6VltG6Dk