[ 夢土上 ]

是的，我在台東了，天氣炎熱，早上六點四十五就32度。天空很藍，雲很白，不像西部總是連天的灰。從灰灰的街道、房子、工廠，到灰灰的天空和灰灰的遠山。
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今天早上我辭了人生中的第一個工作，然後從鹿野、紅葉一路繞著山路回到台東的住處，路上還遇到一尾小百步蛇乾。這個工作我只做了三天，發現整個情形和老闆面試時說的似乎不是同一個樣，耗著也不是辦法，就辭了吧。每家公司總是有自己的作法，也不好多說什麼，總歸一句就是我不適合這分工作。
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阿公才出院，又因為感染進了加護病房，原本今天下午要氣切的，因為一些因素又延到了下禮拜一。家人都很累了，事情很多，而我卻跑到這麼遠的地方來。每天和爸媽通電話，聊著聊著他們就開始遊說我回西部。我想，到了最近，爸媽才發現他們最貼心的乖乖兒子原來這麼固執。
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人生的路要怎麼走呢…往這邊往那邊、做這個做那個，什麼才是重要的呢？我真的想不清楚。現在工作都辭了，就再慢慢找吧，台東的生活是要慢慢地過的，也要多找時間回家才好。
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我很喜歡台東的。

為什麼要常常生氣呢？
為什麼要因為小小小小的事生氣呢？
真的是小小小小的事嗎？
還是因為小小小小的事有很多呢？
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為什麼要生氣呢？
看了狗狗貓咪松鼠小豬的照片
是不是就不會生氣了呢？
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It's what I drew this afternoon in New Paltz, while all of my family in Taiwan are sleeping, and the new year morning is coming... The red table in the drawing is the round table in my home, where family be together and have the feastful dinner of new year eve. That is a huge table, but at this night, there is usually almost no space for us to place our personal dinnerware.
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It's a drawing of a table... Happy New Year :)

The picture, a fish vendor, was taken from a traditional market in my hometown. It's an interesting shot, however it has no relationship with what I'm going to say...
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10 days ago, my girlfriend and I went back from our 9-day camping trip from the easten coast of Taiwan. 3 days later, July 13th, she started her 19-day trip to Holland and UK with her friend. These two lively girls stayed in Holland three days, Bristol (UK) three days, and now, they are in London. In coming days, they are going to visit Scotland.
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It's not very easy for my girlfriend and I to contact with each other in this period. Somehow she couldn't use phone-card(crappy Chungwha Telecom/中華電信) on public phone in both of Holland and UK, and it will be extremely expensive if she call me by her cellphone directly. They have a friend who is studying in Bistrol. When they stayed in her dorm, she could call me by human being's best friend "Skype", which is the cheapest phone in the universe. However, now, in London, what we can do is sending messages to each other by our cellphones.
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So... I just ordered an international phone-card on the Internet. I supposed to send the pin and service number of this new phone-card to my girlfriend by a message. I hope this card works. I really desire to hear her. The web-site says the pin will be send to my E-mail within 5 minutes after the order...and...it's not true. I'm waiting...I'm still waiting... Sigh...

今天是四月二十一號，晚上，星期五... ...繼續閱讀

I always have a bagel or a cheese sausage sandwich with a cup of coffee for my breakfast. I can't concentrate, I can't do anything in the morning before breakfast. I am not a big fan of coffee, but there are no hot drink besides coffee and hot chocolate in the campus cafe. Those coffee have 6 flavors. You may buy a cup, and fill up whatever you like by yourself. My most favorite coffee are Columbian Supremo and Hazel Cream. Columbian Supremo, which is unmixed and a little bitter, is a flavor that I prefer when I am not in a good mood. Hazel Cream, whereas, is a kind of strong smell flavor that I usually drink when I am happy and feel good of the day. You know. It smells "too" good so that I myself can't afford it if I don't feel good enough.
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I have Columbian Supremo now, and She is in Taipei, attending a wedding of her university classmate. These are all I want to say.

Dear J,
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It's about time to sleep, but I can't stop missing you. I can't help turning on the computer again...
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After a shower, with a dim ligh, I looked at myself in the mirror... I looked at the young man with tender eyes, and somehow my mind was flashed back to the past years, in which I was adolescent in love and struggled in self-awareness...
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I like myself, and I always know I can be a better man. And you, dear J, really let me be strong, be tender, and feel that I am full of love.
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I miss you so much.
I can't wait to see you...
I wanna give you all of my love!!

這是很久以前的故事了，發生在我們曾經...而如今不知是否依然存留的天真的年歲。五年來我們都已經成長了許多，並且在某一部分煞有其事的開始衰老，生命是很微妙的，只是沒想到我們真的深切地參與其中，親愛的J。

妳在台灣，在甜美的夢裡。而我這邊是美東時間下午三點，天氣還是冷的，窗外的雨淅瀝瀝的下著，伴著難得的灰暗天色。愛樂電台的線上廣播，播放著可能是我這輩子最喜愛的一部電影"新天堂樂園"的主題曲。這裡面有動人的愛情、美麗的夢想、鄉愁與歲月的哀傷。恰如其分地，在這個想念妳的時刻。

這樣很好，無論如何，我們終於有了美好的開始。 ...繼續閱讀

Fall is coming. My birthday is coming.
I took a long long nap this afternoon. Outside of the window, there are sunshine, breath, and it is a relaxed Friday afternoon.
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The weather is getting colder every day, trees are changing their color, and more and more leaves are flaying in the air...I am really looking forward to fall and winter in New Paltz. All the trees might be red as fire, no clouds in the sky. When the last leaf leaves its branch, it's the snows.
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I know more and more people now. Some Japanese, some Korean, some of them came from Latin America and I have the first friend who was from Africa. Of course there are a lot of American, and I also have some Taiwanese and Chinese friends here.
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Sometimes I feel lonely, but this is the way that I chose. I'll be strong and do well.
Happy Birthday to Me~~