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生老病死﹐那是人生中難免的一些過程﹐最近因著子貓物語的一篇貼文﹐讓我有點複雜的感覺。內容是關於一位網友﹐經歷病痛多年﹐因抵受不了痛苦﹐終於在其部落格中寫下遺言告別﹐結束了自己的生命﹐而且他是早有計劃﹐只是因事延遲了而已。

筆者也曾有一位好友自殺過世﹐那是多年前的事﹐若一直以為人是老死的話﹐那麼年輕的朋友會去世﹐在我來說﹐他是首位。當時他發生了些問題﹐在信心頓失的情況下﹐連工作也受影響﹐我是花了點時間陪他﹑鼓勵他﹐不過經過了一段日子﹐並沒有甚麼結果﹐之後他曾打電話給我﹐關心我轉工的問題﹐不過只談了幾分鐘就結束了我們的對話﹐後來在某個星期日的早上﹐我還想著要不要去探望他﹐可是當晚我跟一班跟他也認識的朋友﹐正興高采烈吃晚飯之際﹐我收到他弟弟的電話﹐說他早上跳樓去世了。席間﹐所有人都很錯愕﹐在四週一片嘈吵的環境下﹐我們這一桌是死寂﹐有些最後還是忍不住痛哭起來。

我對生與死﹐其實並不在乎﹐人不就是從出生開始﹐就等待那天嗎﹖只是這一條路﹐人人不同﹐各自有精采處﹐並不一樣。我聽到消息後﹐倒是很鎮定﹐還安慰席間的朋友們﹐只是本來第二天要到新公司上班的﹐我申請延期了3天﹐稍為處理一下自己的情緒。倒是一個多月後﹐友人的一切事都辦完了﹐我才感到失去一個好朋友的失落。幾年後﹐另外幾個朋友聊天﹐其中一個是社工﹐故此提出了一些假設性的問題來討論﹐假如你的朋友跟你說要自殺﹐你會怎麼辦﹖我想了一想﹐那其實真是一個人生交叉點﹐我的思緒就立時回到友人的狀況中。我的回答是﹕若不論宗教上的自殺立場﹐我想我會尊重他的決定﹐只是我會告訴他﹐我對他是多麼的不捨。當然﹐沒有人會捨得親人或友好的離去﹐可是若他有解不開的死結﹐就算有多親的人﹐誰又會陪伴他渡過漫漫長夜的孤獨﹐或面對無望的迷惘﹖對方的感受﹐我們很難會感受到的。多年後﹐我的想法可能還是一樣﹐只是人年紀大了﹐面對更多的生老病死﹐那種無奈卻又可能讓我不會如此直接回答。

多年後﹐我還很記得這位朋友﹐因為我也曾自問﹐怎麼是他呢﹖因為他偏偏是我同輩中死去的第一人﹐所以我根本不可能把他忘記。講起友誼﹐總覺還是以前比較簡單﹐現今呢﹐男女之間會造成誤會﹐若是同性﹐機會也均等﹐所以最安全的﹐莫不是結婚了﹐讓你的另一半身兼摯友。我常說﹕人年長了﹐經歷自然會更多﹐認識的人也更多﹐然而對人的認識﹐就越來越透徹。活了那麼多年﹐認識了那麼多人﹐有時也不免有許多 Common Friend 出現﹐不過跟我要好的朋友都清楚﹐我對朋友會很挑的﹐我常笑說﹕我不“濫交”的啊~ 那個“交”當然是指交朋友啦﹐故此我認識的人很多﹐但不盡是朋友的﹐尤其那些在我背後插過一刀﹐在我危難時加了一腳的﹐一定不是呢。

曾有朋友問我﹐你覺得某某是你朋友嗎﹖我笑答﹕我感覺不到呢﹐若不是某某某﹐我根本不會跟某某碰面呢﹐有時大家相會﹐我只是給你或某某某面子而已﹐我跟某某只算是“相識的人”吧。因為當細心把事情併湊起來時﹐某某實在太多謊話了﹐最可憐還真是以為用兩分信心﹐加三錢肉緊﹐稍添一點誠懇的眼神﹐就以為謊話連天都會令人相信﹐然而在這些無關重要的小事上那人也要說謊﹐也可見那人的為人會是怎樣的了。我是最討厭人家用最低能的謊話騙我﹐因為這使我感到自己比低能要更超低能。可惜﹐這種人在現今的社會中到處都有﹐那管是生活上或工作上﹐說實在﹐被騙到的會被騙﹐不會被騙的也不屑揭他底牌吧﹐所以這種人的謊話還是會成功的﹐最主要這些人一般都只是找個理由作解釋﹐也不會管那個解釋是否合理的﹐只需抱著強詞奪理就可以了。所以這種謊話﹐還是請你不要送進我的耳朵去﹐我寧願你不說還好﹐當我認清對方的真面目之後﹐我這些人的熱情也會減退﹐這人也不會再是我朋友的了。

猶幸﹐在不同階段﹐我身邊也曾有好友出現過﹐尤其在困難或需要幫助時﹐都會真心的出力﹐這些絕不是單單的“飲食男女”。只是經歷上﹐總會覺得好友們就像在人生路上向自己迎面而來的人﹐有些只跟你擦肩而過﹐有些或許會停下腳步﹐跟你聊一會兒天﹐更好的或許會陪你走一程﹐這大概就是“人蔘”(人生) 吧。有那麼多的感概﹐乃是因為一篇貼文﹑一些過程經歷﹐一些之前發生的事﹑還有那天把CD轉成MP3之際﹐突然重溫了鍾鎮濤的“誠懇”﹐也記起了一些過往講及友情﹐而又在我人生中留下痕跡的歌曲。是的~ 10首有關友情的歌曲。對了~ 這兩天快要到我好友的生忌了。


誠懇 - 鍾鎮濤 (剪輯試聽版)﹕原收錄於“聽濤”(1987?Polydor) 專輯中。
曲﹕鍾鎮濤 / 林敏怡
詞﹕林敏驄


沒有碰上過　許多的挫折
從心裡說　亦算是幸運
今天我再漫漫而行
欣賞看看週遭氣氛

存在原是要揮著熱能
這一分親切感
存在迎著你行近
常伴著你　是我真摰的心

全因這誠懇 可跟你共接近
冰冷全溶化了 換上了你我開心
全因這誠懇 今天我共你能
成真良朋 無限幹勁
帶著熱誠 由我的心中滲

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千個太陽 - 葉德嫻 / 陳潔靈 / 散芬芳 (剪輯試聽版)﹕原收錄於“千個太陽”專輯中﹐改編自電影Fame 的插曲“I Sing The Body Electric”(1980/RSO)。
曲﹕M. Gore / D. Pitchford　
詞﹕林振強


(葉) My Friend 今天你如何 難得一起齊高歌這歌
從不懂解釋我為何 在你友愛內尋到火
年頭匆匆的飄過 甜苦都許多
風波雖各自去闖 而兩心未分過
甚慶幸又再逢 就算離開過
(陳) 琴聲跟心聲同行 彈出一首如火的愛歌
原因心中一個良朋 共我再見面和我歌
年頭匆匆的飄過 甜苦都許多
風波雖各自去闖 而兩心未分過
伴我行是友誼 是太陽千個
(合) 真開心可跟你對望 內心閃出光
若然開心哭了 請你原諒
明天不管將會如何 晴天陰天仍高歌這歌
從不懂解釋我為何 在你友愛內尋到火
(葉) 年頭匆匆的飄過 甜苦都許多
(陳) 風波雖各自去闖 而兩心未分過
(合) 伴我行是友誼 熱我心是你一個
無人可吹得熄 火太陽千個

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友誼之光 - Maria Cordero﹕原收錄於“監獄風雲”(1987/銀星) EP中﹐原曲為紫薇的“綠島小夜曲” (1954/萬國)。
曲﹕周藍萍
詞﹕南燕


人生於世上有幾個知己
多少友誼能長存
今日別離共你雙雙兩握手
友誼常在你我心裡

今天且有暫別 他朝也定能聚首
縱使不能會面 始終也是朋友

說有萬里山 隔阻兩地遙
不須見面 心中也知曉
友誼改不了

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友情歲月 - 黃耀明﹕原收錄於“人山人海”(1997/正東) 專輯中﹔原唱為鄭伊健﹐收錄於“古惑仔1之人在江湖”(1996/BMG) OST 中。
曲﹕陳光榮
詞﹕劉卓輝


消失的光陰散在風裏 彷彿想不起再面對
流浪日子 你在伴隨 有緣再聚

天真的聲音已在減退 彼此為著目標相距
凝望夜空 往日是誰 領會心中疲累

來忘掉錯對 來懷念過去
曾共渡患難日子總有樂趣
不相信會絕望 不感覺到躊躇
在美夢裏競爭 每日拚命進取

奔波的風雨裏 不羈的醒與醉
所有故事像已發生飄泊歲月裏
風吹過已靜下 將心意再還誰
讓眼淚已帶走夜憔悴

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友愛長存 - 林子祥﹕原收錄於“祈望”(1992/Wea) 專輯中﹔改編自 Jose Carreras, Sarah Brightman 的 Amigos Para Siempre (Friends For Life) (1992/ Really Useful)。
曲﹕Andrew Lloyd Webber
詞﹕潘偉源


心 曾歷百般滄桑變遷 曾歷百般的起跌
想起許多事 想越許多人 甜和酸
心 猶幸有心風中並肩 猶幸有心的感覺
湧起許多夢 湧起許多情和明天

一分一刻一天一生消失似煙
一悲一歡一一與你日夕懷念
一絲一些一一銘記日月圓缺
但舊夢永不改變

雙惜雙知雙思雙憶將心永牽
雙關雙依雙雙與你共歷磨煉
雙牽雙親雙雙似愛覓夢和暖
友愛永遠都不變

不枯不衰不休不息千心永遷
不驚不憂風風雨雨共渡磨煉
不分不捨深深切切用熱和愛
共與你以心相見 情永存無限遠

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You've Got A Friend - James Taylor﹕原收錄於“Mud Slide Slim And The Blue Horizon”(1971/Warner) 專輯中﹐原唱為 Carole King (1971/Ode)。
(Carole King)


When you're down and troubled
And you need some loving care
And nothing, nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I’ll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.
You've got a friend

If the sky above you
Grows dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind begins to blow
Keep your head together
And call my name out loud
Soon you'll hear me knocking at your door

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I’ll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you, and desert you
And take your soul if you let them
Oh, but don't you let them

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

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Friends Will Be Friends - Queen﹕原收錄於“A Kind Of Magic”(1986/EMI) 專輯中。
(Deacon / Mercury)


Another red letter day,
So the pound has dropped and the children are creating,
The other half ran away,
Taking all the cash and leaving you with the lumber,
Got a pain in the chest,
Doctors on strike what you need is a rest

It's not easy love, but you've got friends you can trust,
Friends will be friends,
When you're in need of love they give you care and attention,
Friends will be friends,
When you're through with life and all hope is lost,
Hold out your hand cos friends will be friends right till the end

Now it's a beautiful day,
The postman delivered a letter from your lover,
Only a phone call away,
You tried to track him down but somebody stole his number,
As a matter of fact,
You're getting used to life without him in your way

It's so easy now, cos you got friends you can trust,
Friends will be friends,
When you're in need of love they give you care and attention,
Friends will be friends,
When you're through with life and all hope is lost,
Hold out your hand cos friends will be friends (right till the end)

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Stand By Me - Ben E King﹕原收錄於“Stand By Me”(1961/Atco) 單曲中。
(Ben E. King / Jerry Leiber / Mike Stoller)


When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No I won't be afraid, no I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, stand by me

And darlin', darlin', stand by me, oh now now stand by me
Stand by me, stand by me

If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
And the mountains should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, I won't cry, no I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand, stand by me

And darlin', darlin', stand by me, oh stand by me
Stand by me, stand by me, stand by me-e, yeah

Whenever you're in trouble won't you stand by me, oh now now stand by me
Oh stand by me, stand by me, stand by me

Darlin', darlin', stand by me-e, stand by me
Oh stand by me, stand by me, stand by me

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That's What Friends Are For - Dionne Warwick / Elton John / Gladyys Knight / Stevie Wonder﹕原收錄於“Friends”(1985/Arista) 專輯中﹔原唱為 Rod Stewart﹐收錄於“Night Shift”(1982/ Ladd/Warner) OST 中。
(Burt Bacharach / Carole Bayer Sager)


And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well, then close your eyes and try to feel
The way we do today
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well, you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

Whoa, and then for the times when we're apart
Well, then close your eyes and know
These words are comin' from my heart
And then if you can remember, oh

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times, in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
Oh, that's what friends are for

Whoa... oh... oh... keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, oh, for sure
'Cause I tell you that's what friends are for
For good times and for bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for (That's what friends are for)

On me, for sure
That's what friends are for
Keep smilin', keep shinin'

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Old Friends - Simon & Garfunkel﹕原收錄於“Bookend”(1968/Columbia) 專輯中。
(Paul Simon)


Old friends, old friends
Sat on their park bench like bookends
A newspaper blown thru the grass
Falls on the round toes, on the high shoes
Of the old friends

Old friends
Winter companions, the old men
Lost in their overcoats, waiting for the sunset
The sounds of the city sifting thru trees
Settle like dust on the shoulders
Of the old friends

Can you imagine us years from today
Sharing a park bench quietly?
How terribly strange to be 70

Old Friends
Memory brushes the same years
Silently sharing the same fear



延伸閱讀﹕子貓物話之惆悵



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