超‧現‧實‧境

Love will attract love as life attracts life. I wonder, sometimes, i like to be alone for most of the time. Many thoughts I share within myself. There are no friends. Everyone is living his or her own life, all alone, all the way. We need no friends. We can create a little world of our own and live inside this world created for our own. We have created the little world of our own without realising that we did create a small world that we are just about to dwell and it is not a bad thing to realise or to dwell in this little world of our own.

I had dreams about romance in a summer, just like what has happened in the movies. i really shouldn't have watched so many romantic movies in which they always gave you promises of friendship, love, beautiful and delicate things. The promises mean nothing in the reality. But fantasy has its good sides. I would think sometimes I would chase cute boys and someday the campus will be filled with handsome and nice gentlemen who could always be my campanions. These are just dreams, empty dreams. I think i was so immature and foolish, stupid when i just entered the university. Well, the whole thing is just as stupid as going to school! I mean, a university life. Gradually I realise that my so-called school-days are completely over. No more dreams of people, dreams of fancy dating scenes or scenes of having fun together. Here, I am all alone, I don't pity on myself. At this moment of time I begin to seriously consider what to do with my life. Hong Kong is a wasteland to me and a land with some bitter memories. That's not the biggest problem. The biggest problem is that, I have nowhere to hide. There are no trees or mountains and rivers to accompany me, and I can do is to wander from a room to a room and back to a room. The city is like a jail and I have nowhere to hide. I have freedom of mind but I don't have freedom in choosing my way of life. sometimes I would think about this and cry, because I hate the feeling that I've got stuck in the place. Love attracts love and life attracts life. If I have love and life in me, there is nothing to fear, I should remind myself of this.

Somebody in someday tells me that one of his activities is chasing girls. Why can't I chase boys then? A little taste of romance? I can't even get to taste what friendship or fellowship is really like. In a big city like this, we can really live alone all by ourselves. There's no need to have friends for emotional support because nobody really thinks that they need to have friends for that purpose. We live alone, we die alone. There are pretty girls all around in the town, and selfish boys here in town, but strangers! you have nothing to do with me. I have created a small world for myself, and, to protect the small world created by myself is the only reason for my existence and for my fighting in life.