全部列癲 │ Harry Wu

This dream was dreamt on a day when I was about to resign from hosptial in March.

SCENE I performance art

A "cousin" of mine was performing on stage with a group of dancers. This "cousin" actually doesn't exist. He is a son of my uncle, who was an important politician and a local celebrity before. But he served for KMT, the "evil" party. When the performance ended up, this "cousin" walked down from the stage and said hello to the son of KMT president. They went for a dinner, and invited me to go, too. I went. But I did not sit with them.

SCENE II restaurant

In the basement of the restaurant sat an old guy in grey suit, red cravat, (costume of Japanese gentleman in 1930's), holding a walking stick in his hand, dead. No one knew why he died there. There was music in the restaurant, with very vulgar lighting decorations (it looked really camp in a luxurious hotel restaurant). But the atmosphere was really warm. The dead scene of the old one was not really horrible, either. People said the the guy was a "somebody".

SCENE III coffee shop, Tainan

Tainan is my mother's birthplace. There appeared my mother's sister. A group of people were talking about the dead man. They said that he was a general manager of a hotel next to the one he died in. The two hotels had partnership in the past. But for no reason they split up until one day, when they finally reconciled. However it was pity that he has been dead when people last time saw him. This piece of news then became a local gossip.

SCENE IV my home in Changhua

When I went upstairs, my father appeared. My grandfather, who had been dead for 7 years, was blaming my father for ignoring his career, bringing my mother to travel to Tainan (mother's birthplace). Father behaved a little bit coward at that time. It was a completely inverse figure of ordinary him. Mother was blamed, too. But I could not clearly remember the context. They both kept mute. I was about to make excuses for my parents. But I was so taciturn, too. I decided to go to Taichung, where I studied medicine.

SCENE V my flat in Taichung

I pressed "floor 12" instead of "10", where I actually resided before. I took many people home, some of which were those who edited the book with me. We had really good chat. A sweet girl wanted to join the chat. I said okay. She was in a pure white dress, with her hair a little moist, and her feet bared. We chatted until she had to go home at last. I asked her if I should walk her home. She said no because she stays on 16th floor. I pressed the button for her and then went back to my place. Other people disappeared suddenly. There was fog at home.

SCENE VI on the street

The fog disappeared. The wooden floor became dry again. Sunbeam was really beautiful. In the afternoon when it was about to reach sunset. The weather was very comfortable. I walked out from home. And suddenly the scenery became "English". It seemed to be in London. Buildings were like those in Notting Hills. There were empty bottles of beers. I met two guys in their middle ages. They seemed to be a couple. They went up into a queer bookshop. But I did not follow. I called my sister through mobile, feeling like telling her something. But she was on her rehearsal so she did not answer the phone. And then I cried out loud, "Why should I be a doctor???"