and Happy Birthday, though a few minutes earlier, my sweetest friend.

it's been too long.


I keep you secured in my heart.



You are infinite.


like everything i've lost.


I started practicing by losing something everyday like it says in that poem.

so that I will not feel like I'm in the midst of a catastrophe.


Losing you is inevitable.

It is ripping off my heart each and every day.



I lost my favourite friend. a world. a part of who I am.

I lost my favourite friend. a long period of memories.

I lost you. I lost my senses. I lost the ability to trust.


I lost my favourite friend. a dearest friend.

the most important companion.



I've gained no knowledge but everlasting remembrance of you.


I lost no city. no river. no faith.


I simply lost you.


I lost and lost and lost everything I've ever had.


What I have now are merely remnants of what it used to be.





Love, always.