<習作 拾>

 I want to go to a place where there is no need to pretend.

 I want to go to a place where no one loves me nor hates me.


 I want to go there. without postponement.


 I want to go to a place the word "nothingness" is sheer noise instead of something with such a meaning so heavy .


 I want to go to a place where solitude is not sinful and shameful.


 I want to go to a place where things are composed of their own sounds.


  I hope the place I go is a place where no one cares a bit about how I comport myself and how I sound in a minimized tone.


  I wish I could go there and forget what had happened before things got out of control.

  I wish there were no more straggling souls.


  I wish I could sequester myself from normality without any guilt.

  I want to go to another place instead of this one.




  I want to go to a place that can make me braver.

  I want to go to a place where all the things sparkle like fragile tinted glass. Then I can weep for the beauty, not the sadness.

  I want to go to that place where I can shout out love, hatred and pity.

  I wish there were a place where I could proudly pronounce that I am touched in every way.

  I want to revel in what I desire in the place I want to go.


  I want to start changing.

  I want to leave for the place I dream of.


  I want to see the people who appear in my dreams, every one of them, standing next to the seashores, with tides crashing in and subsiding all at once.
  
  I want to see them stand like solid pillars supporting the light sky.

  I want to see them smile at me and waves at my arrival.


  I want to go to a place where every person smiles like they mean it.


   I do not wish for a paradise.


   I merely want to go to a place that can softly, slowly, lyrically reinvents my existence.

  I need to go to another place and take off the shadows enshrouding me in this damned place.