January 9,2007
Remorse eventually follows...
You've got the mail「電子情書」這部電影有段對話-
Joe Fox:Have you ever become the worst version of yourself. That a pandora's box of all the hate, spite and condecension has sprung open? Someone upsets you and instead of walking away... you zing them. "Hello it's Mr Nasty". I'm sure you have no idea what i'm talking about...
Kathleen Kelly:No i know exactly what you mean and i'm completely jealous. When i'm confronted by someone i get tongue tied and my mind goes blank. Then i spend the rest of the night tossing and turning over what i should have said. For example what should i have recently said to
Kathleen Kelly:a bottom dweller who recently belittled my existance.
Kathleen Kelly:Nothing... even now days later i still can't figured it out...
Joe Fox:Would'nt it be great if i could pass all my zingers to you then i could always be nice and you could be nasty whenever you wanted to be. Although i must warn you... when you eventually have the pleasure of saying the thing you want to say at the moment your wanting to say it... remorse eventually follows...
以前被人欺負或跟人發生衝突時,只會瞪大眼睛臉紅脖子粗,思緒紊亂到一片空白,不僅不會反擊,連為自己辯解的話都說不完整,笨死了!一直到前一份工作,面對同事或老闆的無理,我仍懊惱自己像是「俗仔」,然而,當有機會真正俐落的說出傷人的話,在暗自激賞的竊喜之後,隨即追上的就是懊悔和自責...自己怎麼可以這麼輕易的被激怒?怎麼可以如此快的就這樣放棄自己信仰的修養?怎麼可以..在那一時間,我也變成跟對方一樣的人...Joe Fox說的那種感覺,就是這個吧...。