May 25,2008
證明我們值得？
每次看到四川震災的新聞，我幾乎每次落淚…看著螢幕上一幕幕的悲慘、奇蹟和勇氣，讓我想到「康斯坦丁：驅魔神探」（Constantine）電影裡，與撒旦之子聯合叛變的天使長Gabriel和Constantine的對話－
Gabriel: You're handed this precious gift, right? Each one of you granted redemption from the Creator - murderers, rapists, molesters - all of you just have to repent, and God takes you into His bosom. In all the worlds and all the universe, no other creature can make such a boast, save man. It's not fair.
Gabriel: If sweet, sweet God loves you so, then I will make you worthy of His love. But it's only in the face of horror that you truly find your noble self. And you can be so noble. So... I will bring you pain, I will bring you horror. So that you may rise above it. So that those of you who will survive this reign of hell on earth will be worthy of God's love.
Gabriel: You're handed this precious gift, right? Each one of you granted redemption from the Creator - murderers, rapists, molesters - all of you just have to repent, and God takes you into His bosom. In all the worlds and all the universe, no other creature can make such a boast, save man. It's not fair.
Gabriel: If sweet, sweet God loves you so, then I will make you worthy of His love. But it's only in the face of horror that you truly find your noble self. And you can be so noble. So... I will bring you pain, I will bring you horror. So that you may rise above it. So that those of you who will survive this reign of hell on earth will be worthy of God's love.
真是這樣嗎？
如果真如Gabriel所說，一定要經歷這種苦難而存活才能證明人類值得上帝的愛，那我只能說，太苦了，上帝你也太狠心了！
May 10,2008
May 6,2008
Chapter 3-把自己交出去
面對我們不了解的事情，尤其是涉及專業的醫療，我們顯得如此無助與無知。
或許是我先前對和信已有了偏好，也或許和信的醫護人員對只帶著病歷、X光片問診的我露出想幫忙的友善，後來，我們選擇了和信醫院作為治療乳癌的依靠。
因為體貼爸媽從澎湖遠道而來，和信安排了快速排檢小組，儘管還是經歷了3次門診，但在專人的協助下，有些檢查是集中一天做完的，這很貼心。
媽在4月7日動第一次手術，摘除右胸上方的腫瘤以及前哨淋巴。大約下午2點左右進入手術室準備，醫生說這是小手術，約經4小時可完成，即使中間都有專人出來跟我們說明目前的進度，但爸的眉頭總是深鎖、嘴角從未上揚，一顆心放不下也提不起，不時的一而再再而三的檢視電腦螢幕，看每個手術病人的狀態，一看到媽的名字，嘴中便念念有詞：怎麼還在進行中？時間越久，是不是越不樂觀啊？…我擔心你媽啊…。
當把自己交到別人手中時，除了祈求和相信一切都會沒事的信念之外，我們能掌握的還剩什麼？ ...繼續閱讀