個人主義-雙重國籍-多樣人格

One week ago, I was seriously preparing myself for living in Taiwan, alone for one year. This was the mutual decision we made due to the new working hours and continuing education plan with existing company for T but at the end, the plan fell through. To be honest, I don’t know what to think for now since I have gone through the panic stage initially and settled down with the idea that I will be doing fine alone in Taiwan although this is not the ideal situation as to the typical marriage life. This was the best solution we can come up with at that time. 

The plan has been altered. T decided to accept the new job offer, which will be working normal hours.  No more shift works means no more staying alone at home by myself. This is ideal but I kind of look forward to the challenges and excitements that living and working in Taiwan could offer. This will come with a consequence, of course, that I might have to take a pay cut since I earn more here than will do in Taiwan. At the end, everything has turned out better than we have planed although I cannot help myself but think what would have been if the plan’s still going ahead. 

Thinking about leaving is caused by several race-discrimination incidents I have experienced outside of work. The life was so unbearable for me so when the decision that I need to go home for one year was made, I was glad that it is a chance to take a break from the whole thing.  Unfortunately I am old enough to realize that there is no room to play hide and seek in real life, I can only face the irritating discrimination by facing it. It will still be here even after being apart with my husband for one year.  I need to learn to be at ease with it.  

That was hard for both of us to accept the fact that we might have to be apart for one year. We both have gone through it and now are happy that things don’t have to turn out this way. New Zealand will still be the home away from home from now on.  The goal of going to Australia is still leading us to a better future. Before that, A trip to Vanautu is something to look forward to.  

Life is how you made of it. I could choose to sit here complaining about why they are treating me differently and I could also choose to be strong to not let them get to me.  This is the easy question.  I have been in control of my own destiny so far, why start an exception?