August 7,2005
從卡夫卡到Pearl Jam

不過這篇文章要談的仍舊是卡夫卡的《變形記》,那麼,變成蟲子的Gregor Samsa,到底跟Pear Jam有什麼關連?《Vitalogy》裡收錄的14首歌曲當中,"Bugs"是其中最詭異的一首歌,單純的音樂節奏模仿蟲子的動作和聲音,歌詞更是恐怖至極。恐怖的前提,必須是你也覺得屋子裡塞滿了蟲是十分駭人的景象才行。
以第一人稱開場,主角發現他家裡到處都是蟲,連他的身體裡也有蟲。屋子裡已經塞滿了蟲,但外頭還有蟲想進來。主角思索他到底要如何對付這些蟲子,殺了牠們?還是加入牠們?最後,男主角變成了蟲。
滿佈蟲子的意象很可怕,但這首歌讓我覺得更恐怖的地方,在於個人的自我意識遭到消除,失去了自我。有一陣子因為工作的關係,我必須在尖峰時間搭乘捷運,出入流量龐大的台北車站。每次跟著一大群人擠在車廂裡,出了車廂還來不及呼吸,就要趕快爭搶上下電梯、搶著走出捷運站。總在那樣的時候,覺得莫名的哀傷向我襲來,無底洞般的虛無將我吞噬。幸好,這種莫名的憂傷隨著我轉換工作跑道也漸漸消失了。
或許,就像卡謬說的,「當荒謬的人思量著自身的苦刑時,一切偶像都噤若寒蟬。當宇宙間突然間恢復了沈寂時,世間無數的詫異之聲會轟然而起。無意識的、秘密的呼喚,千萬面孔所發出的邀請,他們都是勝利的必然逆轉和必然代價。」
我很高興自己沒有變成了一隻蟲。
Bugs by Pearl Jam
all these...
i got bugs
i got bugs in my room
bugs in my bed
bugs in my ears
their eggs in my head
bugs in my pockets
bugs in my shoes
bugs in the way i feel about you
bugs on my window
trying to get in
they don't go nowhere
waiting, waiting...
bugs on my ceiling
crowded the floor
standing, sitting, kneeling...
a few block the door
and now the question's:
do i kill them?
become their friend?
do i eat them?
raw or well done?
do i trick them?
i don't think they're that dumb
do i join them?
looks like that's the one
i got bugs on my skin
tickle my nausea
i let it happen again
they're always takin' over
i see they surround me, i see...
see them deciding my fate
oh, that which was once...was once up to me...
now it's too late
i got bugs in my room...one on one
that's when i had a chance
i'll just stop now
i'll become naked
and with the...i'll become one
圖片來源:www.amazon.com
歌詞來源:http://www.elyrics.net/go/p/pearl-jam-lyrics/bugs-lyrics/