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060723002088 一長串的數字看起來是毫無意義可言，卻是我離開台灣的時間。062005是我大學畢業的時間，多少跟我同一個時間畢業的人；現在不是在工作就是已經取得碩士。我卻是選擇一條無法預測的路，走了兩年。從一個英文文盲到一個會聽會說會寫會看的人；從執著期經過退卻期到預備期，最後的焦燥不安期。至少終於我沒放棄這個夢想。也許很多人會認為我只是為了喝洋奶，才會決定花那麼多時間上在出國唸書上。但我從未如此去想，雖然我已經忘記最當初出國的理由，我只能說這是我計畫中的事情，想去國外看看，這也是我現在的想法。

雖然我不知道出國之後會吃多少苦或是會迷路在大街上，或者是嚎啕大哭的說想回台灣，只因為一個人過的很苦很悶，每天被作業追著跑。但儘管如此，我不會輕言放棄能出去唸書的機會。也許有好段時間不能見到家人和朋友們，但這也是我自己的選擇。選了就不後悔，決不輕言放棄學業。

白居易賞鳥—燕詩示劉叟


樑上有雙燕，翩翩雄與雌；銜泥兩椽間，一巢生四兒；

四兒日夜長，索食聲孜孜；青蟲不易捕，黃口無飽期；

嘴爪雖欲弊，心力不知疲；須臾千來往，猶恐巢中飢；

辛勤三十日，母瘦雛漸肥；喃喃教言語，一一刷羽衣；

一旦羽翼成，引上庭樹枝；舉翅不回顧，隨風四散飛；

雌雄空中鳴，聲盡呼不歸；卻入空巢裡，啁啾整夜悲；

燕燕爾勿悲，爾當反自思；思爾為雛日，高飛背母時，

當時父母念，今日爾應知。
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I don't know why ! Have any problem in my brain ? Why did me appear to look a coldherated guy ? I want to know what happen in my brain. When I saw the pretty woderful film, I couldn't feel it to toutch me deeply in my heart. I really want to touctch this feel. But I stil couln't get more motion from anytihing!
However, all friends around in my side, they always said '' hey ! u are totally a coldheated guy ! when u face anything and anyone, u have not any motion. I really hate and dislike to listen this. I know that my motion is different form others, when they saw the tragic movie, news , else ; they always cry for these poor human and things. Yes ! In my eyes and my heart, I know these all are poor and touch in my heart. Just my brain talk to me, Oh ! Just Oh ! . Hey ! I really really hate this feel. I want my brain can combine with my my heart ; not apart two area !
One day ! If I want to be a good creator for the work, I couldn't be a coldhearted guy. This mean that I konw, and I really want to feel and toutch anything by my heart not my brain. Besides, I really care all my friends; I just appear other function to care them. But don't want to image me in ur heart , I should to treat u like who ! I just a normal person. May I treat u very well, but when the life have change, people grow up! u and me all will chagne to treat anyone. But I want to say that. I am toally to treasue my family and my friends. Just I appear other way ! May I feel thing that is slow to toutch in my heart. But not mean I am a coldhearted guy ! Jusy my brain anf heart apart two area. And now I try to chang this case. Just don't say I am a bloodhearted guy