What's wrong with a little destruction?

從來沒有哪一首歌，讓我這麼明確又強烈地感受到心碎與掙扎的強烈情緒。
這是被我排名在最愛的The Cure作品前三名的歌曲，任何時候聽，都會被深深地拉入這個世界。




The Cure - Disintegration（from 2002 Trilogy DVD）

就像許多The Cure的歌曲一樣，它花了八分多鐘來經營氣氛，
從一開始漸漸帶領聽眾進入歌曲的氛圍中，再一段一段累積著情緒，等到聽完之後，則是難以自拔。
層層疊疊、又能層次分明的編曲，是我最愛他們的地方。
重重敲打的深沉鼓聲，每一聲都打進我的心坎裡，貝斯唱著優美的旋律，
悠揚的吉他在背景帶出低迷的氣氛，跟著，與keyboard一同點出令人難忘的主旋律，
再來是Robert令人心碎的歌聲，一步一步帶領你，進入他的內心世界。

Robert曾經說過，這首歌的主題對他來說非常非常私人，這並不是適合粉絲跟著唱的歌曲。
歌詞裡描繪的幾近分崩離析的感情，就是他的故事，他的寫照。
也許正是因為他在這首歌當中，是如此毫不矯飾、赤裸裸地將自己的情感攤在聽眾的眼前，
它所帶來的情緒能量才會如此驚人。

以後有空，會詳細介紹這整張專輯（我愛它愛到不像話），
現在先看看這首不論歌詞或音樂，都被眾多Cure粉絲公認為終極經典之一的歌曲在說些什麼吧。

oh I miss the kiss of treachery
the shameless kiss of vanity
the soft and the black and the velvety
up tight against the side of me
and mouth and eyes and heart all bleed
and run in thickening streams of greed
as bit by bit it starts the need
to just let go
my party piece

oh I miss the kiss of treachery
the aching kiss before I feed
the stench of a love for a younger meat
and the sound that it makes
when it cuts in deep
the holding up on bended knees
the addiction of duplicities
as bit by bit it starts the need
to just let go
my party piece

I never said I would stay to the end
so I leave you with babies and hoping for frequency
screaming like this in the hope of the secrecy
screaming me over and over and over
I leave you with photographs
pictures of trickery
stains on the carpet and
stains on the scenery
songs about happiness murmured in dreams
when we both us knew
how the ending would be...

so it's all come back round to breaking apart again
breaking apart like i'm made up of glass again
making it up behind my back again
holding my breath for the fear of sleep again
holding it up behind my head again
cut in deep to the heart of the bone again
round and round and round
and it's coming apart again
over and over and over

now that I know that I'm breaking to pieces
I'll pull out my heart
and I'll feed it to anyone
crying for sympathy
crocodiles cry for the love of the crowd
and the three cheers from everyone
dropping through sky
through the glass of the roof
through the roof of your mouth
through the mouth of your eye
through the eye of a needle
it's easier for me to get closer to heaven
than ever feel whole again

I never said I would stay to the end
I knew i would leave you with babies and everything
screaming like this in whole of sincerity
screaming it over and over and over
I leave you with photographs
pictures of trickery
stains on the carpet
stains on the memory
songs about happiness murmured in dreams
when we both of us knew
how the end always is

how the end always is...