Silence

我已經睡到（而且仍然想睡）無藥可救的境界．畫圖是不可能的咧，我就來寫點東西好了（噴氣）。
一點一本正經卻完全不能波批踢踢幽遊白書版的文章（苦笑）

這篇可以配合這個一起看。

對於非常深愛但是卻永遠無法真正得到的人，大家有沒有「啊，乾脆把他毀掉算了」的悲傷的衝動？只要奪取對方的生命，或留下不可抹滅的傷痕，就某種意義上而言，他永遠屬於你，也依然不屬於你。

對於黑暗變態的內心而言，「純潔」像一道大牆；就算對方也愛著你，這種本性上的隔閡仍然令你痛苦不已。

我想不只一次，樹想要掐死年輕單純的仙水；而少年只是毫無抵抗地，睜著深藍色的大眼睛：「樹，樹，你怎麼了？看起來好痛苦。」「沒什麼。小忍，對不起。」

即使如此，即使在墮落之後，仙水仍然把樹留在身邊；一般人被不愛的人所傷害應該會光速逃離現場；被心愛的人留下傷痕卻是一種扭曲的榮譽。

至於仙水，也會在樹的身上留下愛情的烙印，也許是一種抗議，也許是一種宣示主權的意味，總而言之一也這個人格就是這麼來的－－以他對付幽助那種拖泥帶水的折磨辦法，哪裡是職業殺手？根本就是熟練得要死的虐待狂。在一也的疼愛下樹依然白白嫩嫩的，可見忍養護得很好（喂喂｜｜｜）。

樹對每個人格的喜愛是有差異的；真正投身在魔界計畫之中的人格是實，至於忍本身，「最後出現在人類面前也是好幾個月前的事」（十六集，ｐ８６）換句話說，在這幾個月之間，忍跟奈留一樣只出現在樹面前。我看這根本是實跟忍吃醋未果，乾脆專注在工作上面算了，導致樹覺得自己只像個棋子（十六集，ｐ７０）；但是動畫版中的實對樹說過「休息一下吧，不要累壞了」，可見樹跟普通的棋子還是有差別的。

另外，跟對待其他能力者不一樣，很明顯地仙水的計畫「根本不想把樹暴露在戰鬥之中」；大多把他藏在後方，專心開洞就可以了。

忍跟實看待魔界計畫的態度也是有差別的－－忍實際上並不想傷害任何人，因此除了被戶愚呂害蟲波及的倒楣兄貴卷原之外，其他能力者都有個還算不錯的結局。依照忍與樹在魔界之中最後時刻的發言，知道忍最初的意圖以及遺言的只有樹一人，但是沒有乖乖照著忍的遺言走的，也只有樹一人。

忍真正的意圖是留在魔界（而且是留在魔界之中靈界管轄的範圍以外），並且希望轉生在魔界。至於對樹，則是希望他忘了自己，不要再愛上人類，在魔界憑美貌找個更強又更帥的妖怪嫁掉，過著幸福的日子。這個比較像是忍真正的打算。但是樹表面上遵從忍的遺願，實際上把忍的肉體與靈魂永遠拘在自己身旁，到頭來仙水是否真的能轉生到魔界，當然是個問號。

樹黑暗的小聰明，以及強烈的掌控欲與佔有慾是很不得了的。稍微不行一點的情人很容易被他拋棄或玩死；能讓樹如此死心塌地源遠綿長地愛著，可以想見這兩個人是度過了多麼纏綿的十年。

咳哼，下面這張是我給冰室雪奈的插花圖，因為太恥了所以只有小小截圖（天音：妳還知道恥是什麼鬼還不錯嘛｜｜｜｜｜｜）；想要看原圖的就請買她的本子，口桀口桀口桀～～～～～

今天閑來沒事來聊聊樹的愛情取向好了- v -。話說這張圖未免太色了吧|||||||||

１，當樹說「我很愛忍」的時候，實際上他是希望被忍愛著。因此他是個接受者，不是個給予者。
２，在床上被忍愛著的話當然最好（炸）。
３，樹樹跟忍一樣好惡分明－－忍討厭什麼，他就跟著討厭什麼；喜歡的東西原則上只有忍。
４，樹永遠在試圖征服忍的內心，但是永遠沒辦法。
５，樹的掌控欲很強，為了把仙水留在身邊而不擇手段。
６，故意傷害自己或貶低自己，是他不擇手段的手段之一。如果忍有罪惡感，他就成功了。
７，樹認為只要忍被人類背叛的越深，傷得越重，就越離不開自己。所以他樂見其成。
８，樹是個疏懶的美人，因為仙水的人格「誠」把兩人的生活環境打理得太好了。
９，忍的人格有將近一半是為了樹而生的。
１０，樹是肉體的被虐狂，精神的虐待狂。現在大家知道一也跟奈留是怎麼來的了。
１１，樹是個非常自私的情人，希望被無止盡寵愛，甚至為此假裝自己未曾被愛。
１２，無論樹想要什麼，仙水都會弄到手－－因為寵愛；無論仙水想要什麼，樹一定不擇手段辦到，因為想要繼續被寵愛。
１３，只要自己的情人給的愛不夠，樹就會離開對方；在遇到仙水之前他已經有過好幾個情人了。
１４，自從有過仙水之後，身為妖怪的樹再也沒有辦法喜歡別人；即使仙水只是個人類。

Let's talk about Itsuki's love tendency - v -.

1. When Itsuki says "I love Sensui very much", in fact what he's talking about is "I want to be loved by Sensui very much". Therefore he is the one who enjoys, not the one to give.
2. It would be best if Sensui loves him in bed. (LOL)
3. He has strong love and hate just like Sensui does-- he hates whatever Sensui hates, but basically loves only Sensui.
4. Itsuki is forever trying to probe Sensui's heart through and through, but he never truely succeeds.
5. Itsuki is extremely manipulative. He'd keep Sensui by any means you can think of.
6. Hurting himself or degrading himself may be one of those means. Sometimes he wants Sensui to feel guilty.
7. The more Sensui is betrayed by humans, the more he is hurt; the more Sensui is hurt, the more likely he's sticking to Itsuki. Itsuki likes the whole scenario.
8. Itsuki is a lazy beauty, because one of Sensui's persona "Makoto" takes care of him too well.
9. About half of Sensui's personas were created for or because of Itsuki.
10. Itsuki is a masochist physically, but a sadist spiritually. That's why we have Kazuya and Naru.
11. Itsuki always wants to be loved, or pretends that he was never loved, since he is a insatiable selfish lover.
12. No matter what Itsuki wants, Sensui would give-- out of love; no matter what Sensui's wish is, Itsuki accomplishes-- out of cravings for love.
13. Itsuki would discard a lover if he does not get enough love from that lover. He has already had several lovers before he met Sensui.
14. The yokai Itsuki can never fall in love ever again after Sensui dies, even if Sensui is just a human.

解剖忍的多重人格英文版－－文中有許多部份為求通順（其實是作者太笨）加上不太重要所以略過不翻。只好對外國同好說聲抱歉啦～－ｖ－

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我畫了樹被綑綁的樣子; 我想他是一個無可救藥亟需以溫柔的殘酷加以對待變態虐受。

原文標題「樹很變態，究竟有多變態」；忍樹一系列認真文之一。
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原標題「仙水很可憐，究竟有多可憐」；八百年前寫的文章，早該貼上了。
在冰室雪奈的站上也看得到這篇喔～

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不知為何突然有這種想法。.

人類的本位主義實在非常嚴重。最近Animate在播放妖怪人間這部動畫；看了之後讓我很想上漫吐板大吐一番。

動畫的內容不外乎，裡面三個主角堅持相信只要保護人類就是正義，總有一天會被人類所接受－－問題來了：為何非要保護人類不可？如果是這樣那也就罷了，他們高興就好；為何非要成為人類不可？做自己不行嗎？有個朋友對我說：很簡單，因為這部動畫是人類做的。人類的毛病大肆發作罷了。

一樣是生命，殺人者死，那麼殺貓殺狗也應該比照辦理；不是嗎。如果是為了維繫自身生命而殺，可以理解；因為獵食動物的不殺就等於是自殺，是自然律的定律；吃素者的罪或無罪並不會比吃葷者來得高明許多。

但是除此之外的殺我都不能接受。左京那批人的虐殺妖怪，跟靈界偵探時代的仙水忍乾淨俐落的解決妖怪，殊途同歸，其實是一樣的事情。

當然幽遊的結局揭露了，妖怪邪惡說算是靈界為了把持人類的某種陰謀，造成了擁有靈力的人類與妖怪之間的裂痕（即使將靈界會把抓到的妖怪洗腦成為邪惡妖怪的行為考量進去，實際上妖怪殺人的比例，仍然比人殺人低太多了）。那麼仙水的行為這麼比喻好了－－

有個人被環保局洗腦，加上住家附近野貓太多，堅持相信殺光野貓才是正確的，四處殺貓，見貓就殺。這個人即使本質純潔，也有他的恐怖之處在。

甚至我突然覺得，如果仙水打從一開始就沒有遇到樹，「也許反而能夠承受得住人類虐殺妖怪的那一幕」（前文提過了，因為這兩者之間其實是一樣的，只是殺妖怪的手段骯不骯髒罷了）。

與樹相遇，造就了仙水忍內心不可逆的裂縫；就好像有一天這個殺貓大隊隊員不小心撿到一隻野貓，還把野貓帶回去養。「無論再怎麼說服自己這隻野貓是特別的」，矛盾已經造成了。左京事件只是這個矛盾的引爆點罷了。當然環保局（以及人類本位主義份子）自然會大而化之地指控這隻野貓「腐化」了他們的殺貓大隊隊員。嗚呼哀哉。

我仍然認為萬惡的淵藪是靈界的所作所為，而不是仙水。他仍然可以算是純潔的－－只不過成人的仙水忍，並沒有跟高中的仙水忍本質相差甚大。「不管作為如何，本質仍然維持不變」，我想是純潔之人的特徵之一吧。如果樹在的話我想他會同意我。畢竟他一直喜歡著忍。


換句話說，其實過度的純潔本身也是一種邪惡；在歷史上因為戰爭而死亡的人，絕大多數是以上帝或阿拉之名被屠殺，並不是撒旦；而極左派（共產黨）與極右派（法西斯）最原始的中心思想，竟是人類原本是純潔善良，可以為大眾（共產）或國家的存在（極右）而奉獻自己。忍的恐怖在於忍非常純潔；而忍，一直都是很純潔的。

與純潔之人相遇時敬請小心。


I don't know why I had this feeling suddenly.

Human beings are egoistic to ridiculous extent. For example this cartoon serie called "Humane Demons (or something like that)" I had been watching has it that the main characters, namely the three demons, think it is justice itself to protect human beings. OK, if they like the feeling, I have nothing to object to that. Yet I have serious doubt about their wanting to BECOME HUMANS themselves, leading to questions such as "what's wrong being a demon? What it is that's SO good about being humans?" My friend simply replied: "because this cartoon is made by humans, and humans are very, very egocentric."

We know those who take another human's life must die; should all lives be equal, to be fair, those who take animals' lives should die as well. However, I do not oppose to eating animals, for it is suicidal of a predatory animal NOT to kill for survival, which is the law of nature. Being an vegetarian taking plants' lives for living is just the same with the non-vegetarians who take animals'.

But I do not accept ANY reason besides that to kill any lives. Therefore, Sakyo's killing weak demons for fun and young Sensui's for justice, if you look at them at the deepest level, are the SAME behavior.

Of course by the end of YuYu Hakusho we realize that it is Reikai's conspiracy to create an illusion that all demons are bad, so as to take control over human world, so that humans who have power become natural enemies for the demons. Yet even if we take the demons brainwashed by Reikai to be evil into consideration, still, the casualties by the hands of demons is far less than those by the hands of humans; hence we may look at Sensui this way--

There is a pure and nice young man educated by the government that all cats are bad. He sees so many cats in the area he lives, so he kills them all, believing it is right to kill cats. Even if he IS a nice good young man, there are muderous and fearful traces in him.

All of a sudden I feel that, if Sensui did NOT meet Itsuki at the first place, maybe he could have been able to take the brutal scenes in Sakyo's much easier than he does in the serie; because, as I said before, in the deepest level they had been doing the same thing, just that Sakyo had his dirty way of killing demons but Sensui with pure heart.

Coming across Itsuki creats an irreversible crack in Sensui's heart, just like the cat-killing young man must have been feeling self-contradictions when he picks up a stray cat and takes it home. No matter how he tries to convince himself that the stray cat he's taken is very special and different from other "evil" cats, the cracks inside his heart would only become bigger. The Sakyo incident is only a trigger for the cracks to finally collapse. Of course, Reikai and humans may call this process "corruption", since humans are selfish enough.

Nevertheless I do not consider Sensui evil. It is illusions Reikai has been creating to be blamed, not Sensui. He is very pure inside his heart, and no matter how he changes and what he does, he remains all the way the same as pure since he was in high school till he became adult. I think the unchangeableness is one characteristic of a pure human heart, and Itsuki, whose love for Sensui never changed as well, would agree with what I say here.

Human beings are so strange. If you look carefully, you may realize that being pure and chaste is also a form of evilness. For example, it is in the name of God, not Satan, that the greatest number of lives are tortured and slaughtered. It is the original ideas of Facism and Communism that hypothesize that the human natures are so good that humans are able to share everything or devote everything to the country. If you say Sensui is evil, that is only because he is pure-- too pure.

Beware when you meet a man of chastity.