Ella's Notebook

在跟 J 通過電話之後，心情豁然開朗，終於可以放下我心中深藏已久的石頭，可以做朋友的就不該是敵人，生活中只要沒有敵人心情就輕鬆了許多，該是重拾生產力的時候了，感謝老天爺，一切又回歸正軌了。

ps. 剛剛完成報稅, 2005 年是連續六七年來收入最少的一年, 這樣也好, 政府還得還我錢, 趕快給我拿回來!!!! 唉...

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總是在經歷過愈來愈多人生必經的風風雨雨後，開始能輕易地辨識出許多事情的灰色地帶，也很自然而然地就接納了那些「不能說絕對的對、也不能說絕對的錯」的情形。時間久了，意外地發現自己竟然喪失了某些分辨是非黑白的能力，甚至任由某些自私的人對自己佔盡了便宜，我在剎那間領悟到了「黑與白」對人生的重要。
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當然，很多事即使知道了還是學不會，心軟之人如我，還是沒有辦法真的去怨怪那些刻意佔別人便宜的人，然而，所幸，我也是個堅強的人。
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感謝那些帶我領略人生灰色地帶的朋友，也感謝那些對事物的是非黑白有所堅持的人們。看得見灰色的人，是不盲目的幸福的人；然而，能夠清楚明辨是非黑白的人才是真的良善而且捍衛著我們生活的人。
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從今天起，我要看見 － 黑、灰、白。

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Here is some disenchantment from all these days when I confused myself by accepting too many gray areas in my life. I even allowed some selfish people to take advantages of me because I thought things like that could be hard to define. Now I just realized how important it is to tell back & white from things instantly instead of always looking at the aspects which we cannot easily say that’s absolutely right or wrong.
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I still thank people who always show me the ambiguous things, they make me learn more from life. People who can tell the gray areas are actually fortunate because they are not blind; however, there are people who can firmly tell things from black & white truly virtuous and supportive for our lives. Thanks both for your existence.
 

I feel so good in the sunny day! 

By the way, do we really need an opening party for this super tiny company?  Uh... This is a difficult question...  

原本的計畫是這樣的, 我要幫每個來光臨我新辦公室的朋友們拍照留念, 不過今天攝影師Vincent來的時候, 因為聊天聊的開心, 又忘記要拍照這檔子事了.
總是, 謝謝每一個來踩過這間小辦公室的足跡.

壓力很大. 奇怪的是, 不論生活有多忙碌, 一些該忘的人或該忘的事卻不曾忘記. 有時後覺得即使贏得了全世界, 卻不能得到自己真的想要的, 這一切就都沒意義了. 人的心, 怎麼可以如此貪婪呢?

對生活的體悟, 總是不斷推陳出新. 離大智慧的距離彷彿還有好遠好遠.
加油呀...加油呀...菜艾拉  @_@

PS. 還沒向菜艾拉辦公室報到的豬朋狗友們, 趕快來報到喔!!

It was about time to go out since I have been exhausted from work lately. So, last night Ada and I shared an interesting night together, met some new friends and found a great band called ‘the soundclashes’. They played a blend of rock’n roll with reggae. People in the bar were extremely high and full of fun. Everybody jived with the music. Their moves were very amusing; it must have been because of the reggae. I would have gone down to dance if we didn’t have a foot massage before going there. My foot and my slippers were covered with thick oil when the music started pumping. If I did go down there, I would have, must have slipped over like a frog.    

This morning I went to Xingtian Temple (行天宮) with my mom and Yuchi (my brother’s gf). Again I asked for the fortune slips that could show if I will have good luck in my business and relationship. God said my business will go very well if I can work hard; but for relationship, there was no answer.

Whatever, I don’t actually count on anything. I just need more sleep, need more money, need more long long vacations.
Hope those things are coming soon! Cheers! =)
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為了滿足第一位準客戶的要求, 在小週末的夜晚仍需努力加班趕製所有作品的資料卡, 今天一直陪伴我的是窗外的城市風景. 

I've been too busy to leave anything meaningful on this blog. However, life still goes on. Keep busy and counting my days. =)

在辦公室裡耗掉一整個下午,
算算這兩天總共用電鑽在新租來的屋子牆上鑽了9 個洞. (房東不要心痛!)
幾張大畫因為沒有內框, 還在傷腦筋怎麼展開來.
為了幫每張畫拍照好多東西都要挪來挪去, 總之就是不停團團轉.

畫面中看到的兩張椅子買貴了,
我在內湖買單張2480, 今天晚上跟AKI到民生社區吃飯,
看到一間傢俱店出清特賣一張才1500, 真是...*%$#&%*....

忙亂過後, 畫面就呈現的亂有搞頭的囉!  =)

Tonight was the first time that Kassey, Tony and I had our meeting in my new office. This was also the first meeting of this office. Everything goes back on track again after this meeting. Well…now I know what I should focus on in the following days. =)

Giving up the chance to go to the meeting in China with Vincent allowed me to review my art business in more details. Sometimes I feel this is not a business, this is just for fun, for my silly, simple dream. But that's also what supports me to go on my life.

Whatever, it seems that my first client is coming soon. Cheers!

I experienced some turbulence in my own mind a few days ago. I fought with myself and I lost to myself, which has been a complex story. And that is why now I feel extremely tired both physically and mentally.

But my adventure is right there waiting for me. I have no time to be tired. I have to be strong and never give up. I am happy that I still know who I am. =)  

Thanks Aki. He has been tired out too for helping me on tons of things. Thanks are never enough. But now that is the only thing I can give to people.

The paintings on my hand recently comfort me very much. I know these visuals will be in my mind through the rest of my lifetime.