午夜的天堂酒吧

如夢初醒的米蘭生活。

回到台灣的第一天，就是久違的颱風在機場等候我
一切曾經熟悉的影像再度回到我的腦海裡
看著電視上無聊的綜藝節目和過度綜藝化的新聞
突然覺得，這趟米蘭之旅彷彿只是一場夢
夢總有醒的一天，醒了，又回到現實的生活
就好像昨天晚上在電視上看到電影"納尼亞"
不管在衣櫥裡闖蕩了多少年
回到現實世界後又變回原來的自己
一切，又將從頭開始

今天一大早先去拜訪即將去上班的公司
人事部主管突然問了我ㄧ句: 你準備好要上班了嗎?
當場我愣了一下，我反問我自己，我準備好了嗎?
說老實話我不知道，感覺心裡被挖空了一塊
只覺得彷彿少了什麼東西，有股淡淡的失落
我想，人事部主管似乎不是很滿意今天的交談
因為我一副就是魂不守舍的樣子
連後來跟副總談的時候也一樣，自己也覺得很失態
我猜當下副總大概很後悔就這樣把我找回來
現在想後悔不雇用我也來不及了
就這樣，決定下星期一就開始上班
結束今天奇怪的會面，三方人馬都不知所云
我當時的失態一定是讓副總臉上三條線吧

現在也只能好好利用這個星期讓自己調整回來
順便見見許多很久不見的好友
點播的是Everything But The Girl的Rollercoaster

I still haven't got over it even now.
I want to spend huge amounts of time on my own
I don't want to cause any serious damage
I want to make sure that I can manage

我承認我現在還是沒有辦法接受我已經離開米蘭的事實
連帶回來的行李都不想unpack，只想躲在自己的房間裡
換了新手機也是馬上和米蘭的朋友聯絡，而不是台灣的朋友
就像歌詞說的，And my life is just an image of a rollercoaster anyway
也希望自己能夠早日步上軌道



Everything But The Girl / Rollercoaster

I still haven't got over it even now.
I want to spend huge amounts of time on my own.
I don't want to cause any serious damage.
I want to make sure that I can manage,
because I'm not really in your head,
I'm not really in your head.

And I see love and disaffection
and the clouds build up and won't pass over.
This is my road to my redemption.
And my life is just an image of a rollercoaster anyway.

I still haven't got over it even now.
I want to spend huge amounds of time in my room.
And I'm not coming out until I feel ready,
not running out for a while my heart's unsteady,
and I'm not really in your head.
I'm not really in your head.

When you sky falls to minus zero,
well some things must dissappear.
Oh this is my road to my redemption.


And my life is just an image of a rollercoaster anyway.
The names may have been changed but the faces are the same
The names may have been changed but as people we're not the same.

And I'm not, no I'm not, no I'm not
really in your head.

And my life is just an image of a rollercoaster anyway.
Yeah, my life is just an image of a rollercoaster anyway.



2007/10/08