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做了B傳送的EMAIL上的心測
讓我感興趣的其實是how these questions are grouped and categorized
then sent in one mail...

例,一封名為"你的粗心指數,你所期待的男生類型和你是與哪款戀愛類型"的EMAIL裡, 三種其實看起來無關又好像相關的測試被放在一起; 做完後得到的結果是:

我
是一個對自己缺點瞭如指掌的人,但很健忘;
戀愛裡喜歡掌控一切,期待另一半能把我當作宇宙無敵世界第一的女王(XD!)
戀愛類型是純純之戀,還是個小孩子,沒有防備容易被偏;不過因為個性原本開朗所以可以馬上回復正常,說些"這樣我也成長了"之類的話

三種答案一起看就懂了
既矛盾又固執
果然討厭鬼一個

最近很忙

不過, 工作中邊敲著這幾個字,有點不確定起來

算小時數,非常忙
算檔案量,非常忙
算在家裡NETFLIX紅色信封的數量,不怎麼忙
算HARRY POTTER 6 閱讀進度, 有閒
算MSN實際聊天人數,比起CCA日子要來得大有進步
算血液裡咖啡因濃度,我應該要HIGH到在這間3坪大辦公室桌上跳舞

總之過去這一個月沒有上來發牢騷的日子
我過得很好, 專心的忙碌著
在每一口呼吸之間

那種難以親近的感覺不是表面的
可以說很好笑的話
可以打招呼擁抱表示親切
但我們彼此都知道,在黑色白色的中間有一段灰色的漸層
我在自己和世界之間劃了一道透明的牆
暗示性的

她渴望自由
卻不願引起任何注意
想孤獨的時候又發現自己很需要安全感

為了反反復復的矛盾  猶豫
抬起腳在自己的空間裡畫著一個又一個
重疊的圈

依能靜說

那一年的東京街頭,常有我在前面走,而你則望著我,
在我身後亦步亦趨地守候,
不敢超越我,也不敢牽我的手
你只是很沉默的等待
等待著我心中的暴風雨過去

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八

辛苦你了
要結束悠閒舒適的溫哥華生活回到工作崗位，應該多少有點不情願吧？
雖然知道一直以來你都是這麼努力過來，為家人為自己勞動打拼著的，

不過，在自己也即將步入上班族生活的這幾天，不免對你和麻和所有認真付出一切精力時間的人產生更深刻更崇拜的敬意。或者應該說，我既羨慕又摸不著頭絮。因為早早我已經認定自己是那種除非能夠百分百確定前進的方向，不然就產生不了某種程度執著的人。

不是不了解一步一腳印的道理，而是在我的字典裡＜知道＞和＜實踐＞似乎從來太陽月亮不打同一邊出來。偏偏四週又都是很清楚自己在做什麼的人（感覺起來）。這麼一想不免會產生動搖，尤其是在什麼都還不確定什麼都做不了的時侯。

What do you want?
最近感覺最詭的否定句。
如果腦袋能有一部分長在手上腳上就好了。

。
想要表達的東西很多，只是無法順利把它轉化成你能懂的文字。

看了很多書﹣﹣這幾天瘋狂的，一刻也沒有喘息，拼了命像是要把頭腦塞滿般地強迫灌入各式各樣的文字。所謂的各式各樣真的是五花八門，小說文學資訊程式教程美容雜誌，甚至因此將買了好久的面膜打開一邊敷一邊繼續維持了接近十個小時的姿勢。無意義地全盤吸收直到身體再也負荷不住，才發現原來從一開始目的就在於要先破壞那個原有的什麼，之後一切回歸為零的空白狀態。

如果有人能讓我徹徹底底的任性過一次…

_
never a philosopher yet believe to have more dead brain cells than average :p
therefore when i passed by this HP fandom blog ( for those who knows
what i'm talking about, it's a Harry x Draco slash ) and saw this quiz, i wanted
to be the cat killed by curiousity:



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i woke up several times last night with yoyo ma, and finally rolled off the bed at 4a.m.
as i heard a tink from my mailbox. i was immediately awake when i saw the title:
it's a list of zen; servied in the purpose to follow-up the last april fool. anyway i scrolled
down and this one jumps into my sight at first:

A CLEAR CONSCIENCE IS USUALLY THE SIGN OF A BAD MEMORY.



...
ow.


i'm not conscience most of the time but i am soncisnce enough to say that...
and i'm honest about my memory-- orz.

doesn't matter the good, the exciting, the unpleasent, the outraged...
i remember most of them but i can never be the first person in a group
to remind everybody else such-and-such memories. overtimes i 
discovered that it may be becuase i tend to see everything as cases;
when it's done then it's past--only go back and dig them out if there is
an occasion.

still, why would a clear conscience be a sign of bad memories?

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my f1rst (?) move in several mothes of wasted ink, paper and calories:
the seattle AIGA / FILTER sponserd Reality Check -- several good comments,
much remarkable recognition, and few potential job offers from local big
headquarters. i was only sad to find myself still missing the sun too much.
also, three and half years ago, part of the reasons was the rain, and i
can't afford living in temperature higher than 28c, plus i would die in
boredom if to stay at a place without a sea shore...northern cal is by far
the closest place that i have lived. i feel like nesting, and such thought
creeps me off.

我不是很清楚最近在猶豫什麼，也許太乾淨了。

_

i'm losing my sincerity, puriness, virtue, or any other synonyms of innocence

oh, but i still believe that i'm a good girl, a nice person

...maybe just a little unfocused.